Day 24: Your top 3 worst traits
So much so that this should probably cover all three of my worst traits. I never miss a deadline, but if there is any way to put off until tomorrow what I could do today, I can find it. Check email, start a different project, surf the ‘net, take a nap. I’ve perfected all sorts of delaying tactics. I’ve been this way since I was a kid—I cranked out some excellent essays in my school career, but they were always completed the night before they were due. I work well under pressure, yet I hate the stress of rushing to meet a deadline. I’m not sure why this is a habit I can’t seem to break.
I feel I have fairly reasonable expectations of others, and am forgiving of many shortcomings, but I tend to hold myself to a MUCH higher standard. I think this comes from a fear of disappointing others. I can’t tell you why I’m so agreeable to being disappointed by others but have such an aversion to causing disappointment.
If I have a definite opinion, I will express it, but I’m usually a go-with-the-flow kind of gal, equally happy to explore either side of a fork in the road. In trying to show that I am amenable to whatever others would like to do, I often look like I can’t/won’t make a decision. I’m honestly not trying to be difficult, I just rarely feel strongly about one choice versus the other. See a movie or go bowling? Doesn’t matter to me, both will be fun. Outback or Olive Garden? I don’t care, I have favorite dishes at both restaurants, and either way I won’t have to do dishes. Ironically, it annoys me to no end when someone else does the noncommittal thing to me, so I’m trying to be more proactive in recognizing and correcting my behavior when I enter that mode myself.