NaBloPoMo Monday, November 18, 2013
Tell us about a blog post that you didn’t publish.
I wish I had a juicy story to tell here. I don’t.
Sure, I’ve started some flash fiction pieces that fell short of my expectations and never saw the light of day. But I’ve never drafted a personal memoir or a soap-box rant then refrained from releasing it into the wild because in the narrative I may have stepped on toes or crossed some line of privacy/courtesy/respect. It’s never happened because I am so concerned with what other people think and feel that I shy away from certain topics altogether.
As a wanna-be writer, it makes me uncomfortable to know that I am censoring my thoughts, words, and ideas before they even hit the screen. I struggle between needing the freedom to tell my story, whether it be fact or fiction, in any way I choose, with respecting the feelings of those who might read my words, be they family, friends, or strangers.
Will a family member be embarrassed if I recount a funny incident from childhood?
Will friends question my morals and my sanity if I dream up a gruesome murder or a racy tryst in next week’s flash fiction piece?
Will I incite a venomous riot of hateful comments if I share my views on gun ownership or Obamacare or animal cruelty?
Will the drunken rednecks who nearly incinerated my entire street last week with their gasoline-fueled idiocy vandalize my house in retaliation if I tell the story?
Questions like these make me wonder if I wouldn’t have done better writing in a personal journal rather than publishing on a public blog. And they make me doubt my ability to ever churn out a novel.
You writers out there, how do I get to a place where I don’t give a rip about anyone else’s opinion and can just set my story free?
November 18, 2013 at 8:43 PM
I am not a writer, but my advice is that you make a decision to be free of your worry about what others might think and trust that those who love you will respect your thoughts and opinions even if they don’t agree with them. If we all thought the same exact way how boring would that be! 😀